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Friday, March 23, 2012

☛ Childhood Blister ★★★

My flatmates were doing everything bit harder to wake me up. And yes I got up finally. I first reminded the last night's last peep - "planned to watch a movie by 1am, twitted too". Apparently in seconds drowsy waves let me surrendered to sleep.

Somehow we got tea packed in a poly bag. The most difficult task was awaited here to pour tea into glasses. This is well known at our abode that I can pour anything perfectly, even there are times when Celso says - 'stop amplifying your history.'

It went this way:


Childhood spent in hill’s and of course I feel proud to be born and brought up there, however, social and economical struggles were hard. Luckily, I have one photo clicked of my village for what I am more than happy to post. Years back, following home rules as by morning 6am my father’s sweet shout from the next room - ‘wake up son’, if ignored then I swear so many times it had turned in abuses - "uthta hai ya nahi Bantiyaaa". That loud voice had had scared me, and not that much bother to pay emotionally sweet things.

Apparently dairy farming is still top survival activity in our hills, in fact worldwide in those areas which fall under agricultural zone. I clicked this photo of our calf last year, looks pretty cute! Isn't I am true? If you have been to a rustic place where you own huge land and only you are responsible to mange you and your family with the available resources and some cash which eventually you get from your fixed works.
We had cattle and small farming in village and still everyone contributes own part there to run accordingly. There was always so much extra work burden before you go to school in morning. I admired physically hard work challenges like irrigating field from bucket water, dropping water to cattle shed, cattle ranching, brooming yards and so many other work related to farming...Oh god..sheer hard work.



After getting done with all the assigned farming and cattle work in the early morning then was the time to get ready for school. First setting 10 ponds school backpack and carrying along with 5 liters milk cane in each hand and ready to hike some mountains with that much load. It was really painful. Here I really do not want to talk about my backache from poor posture, carrying overloaded bag and leading a sedentary, unhealthy lifestyle but for sure I want to talk about the aggravation and ache after carrying the milk cans with thin wire handle. Jesus! I can feel that palm ache anytime after closing my eyes and going back in the past. Being from a small farmer family is not an easy task to even phrase your dream. It just move ahead by taking hierarchy responsibilities upon.

My school was located in the nearest city i.e. Bhowali and the total distance was 3-4km from our village. First need to cross 1.5km village trail which ultimately
all surrounded by cool breeze, the fallen pine leaves had made the trail even softer and once you reach the city road, you'll be amazed for sure. Aha, I can remember the taste when I eventually stepped on the city road, such a proud feeling. Traffic, honking and civilized city people, those all were my fantasy to live around. I used to reach city loaded with my schools bag and milk canes each day and please remember one thing that in village what poor children do - 'they wear their school dress only either to school or to market'. After crossing uphill it was always sweating because have had loved to run. I and brother made so many records of reaching early across the places.

Once entering in the city then time to knock the doors of some houses who were our customers. And, from inside a sound accompanied every day -"who?" and Me(loud voice) - ‘Dudh’(milk). And then the door will get opened and I take out my one small 1 lt jug and measuring out milk without wasting it. First pouring into jug then pouring into their utensil and delivering it safely. Then again heading to next house and repeating the same thing *pouring*poring*pouring*. When done with this delivery work had had a *victory* feeling. Unfortunately, hiking hills with holding milk canes made from thin wire injured my palm so many time. I used to show it to my mother and her answers always comes from eyes rather than words. I always go silent after getting my mother’s answer especially if communicated from eyes because you dare not to scratch wound deep.

Why should not I laugh when I listen the word "blister"? When I jumped to class 6 apparently got some responsibilities too. I have had faced so many ugly situations and limitless pains which won't come on blog I know that. Believe me when someone talks about palmistry or something related then I just think of my palm and my childhood *milk*pouring**thin-wire-handle*

To be continued...

Thursday, March 15, 2012

Life in clicks

Yes, It was the Dorling Kindersley’s official picnic day and more than 220 employees had already confirmed their participation and I was also one among them.
Picnic was all planned nicely and Agenda was:

12:30pm- Departure from office
1:30pm- Reach the venue
1:30pm- Lunch, followed by games
5pm- Departure

I really didn’t know why I was happy though I had no one to go with. However, I asked to my senior picture researcher if she is coming or not. I headed to home, dressed up well and went into a park.



Apparently I am in Delhi for 4 years but still I haven’t visited most of the parks/museums/historical places. That day I rode according to my nod and entered into Indraprastha park. I was keep Wandering here and there but couldn’t located any of employees of my company and then I called HR – ‘which gate to come’?

This was the first imagery I clicked in the park. Though I havn’t had good time to think about it but I got sensitive and reminded myself the value and true joy of our childhood days.



This is especially true at times when I would like to escape from the torture of survival endeavor, social ethics and political hurdles. It’s the time when we live associated only with fun and play. No matter which socio-economic class we belong to. I'd rather call it the time without any major responsibilities to shoulder.

I couldn’t thought much because it was already 2pm there and tired of calling people and asking which Gate no. you are at. Weather was sunny and bit warmed. I changed the direction to hunt my office team with bit confusion, - 'why I am not able to locate anyone here'?
For one thing I was sure that park was all crowded with love birds and you could see them everywhere lying on each other’s back or cuddling, kissing, crying, laughing and fighting.



Aha, such a wonderful moment I met. I could saw people in and enjoying. May be it seemed me beautiful and extra bright because I am still single and want someone. -*blink*- It’s the time when you’re in an emotion of strongest affection and personal attachment. Someone was right – ‘Love is a virtue representing all of human kindness, compassion and affection and ‘the unselfish loyal and benevolent concern for the good of another’.

2:30pm it was and I was hungry, tired and sweating too. I think a kind of exacerbation I was having with. I checked all d gates then got to know there is one more gate, which I missed earlier. Being optimistic soul, I moved to next gate wondering if I could see my office people.


Errr, I was shocked to see this old man sitting on THE base edge of a wall. May be couple of questions he needs to address and probably not getting the way. God knows what he was thinking for. On reflection, I realize it’s not about anger, or even self-blame. It was about fear, which I could easily read on his face. This mirrors his own physical and emotional struggle. To maintain some veneer of sanity, I struggled to stay in the present and didn’t think beyond.

The tragedy of old age is not that one is old, but that one is young.~~OSCAR WILDE

I crossed my patience limit thus inquired with a gentleman to get answers to my queries and before he could started, I heard a girlish voice. There was a girl behind, telling me that I am in wrong park. I got nervous and tired but smiled and again started asking some questions eventually which might had with me.

I was crushed mentally and physically too and by 3pm I started heading to Lodhi garden – alone, tired, hungry....however, happy to clicked something amazing!

Sunday, August 29, 2010

Silence...

The way passes away..
like marooned door's silence...
which has nothing..
even an existence...

The way I crossed..
had enough to preach...
aspects of life..
echoes of philosophy...
long cacti ground for experience..

I am still a pure human..
many times feel proud..
same much times low too...

smile...Jolly....with silence..
Think life is just transformation of energy...

lost in colors of almighty..

Friday, May 14, 2010

Life been speckled –

Everyone goes to corner
And I feel the love
They may say spread love
Oh! To me obliviously
Then I say to me
Being I too crazy up to this?


Breeze from snow
Was the thing of past
This time blames come to ear
Fylfot! Who one? Fylfot
Was I for parents?
At beginning of life


Think time is bad
Being guest to waif,
Shelter and food
Instead to fight with brother
Are in schedule


At day time, world in screen
And at time of ghost
Only Baron’s bed
Wet in memory of
Passed thorny destiny

Lokesh Bisht...